The Atlantis Within

What does Atlantis represent to you? 

This question has been percolating in me all week since reading this quote in the The Wisdom of Colour Mirrors, Connolly, K. and Jolly, M., 2019, pp. 33–34.

Can anyone ever know the ‘truth’ about Atlantis? Perhaps, essentially, Atlantis is whatever you require it to be. (…) The only ‘real truth’ of Atlantis is the one you touch within yourself.

If Atlantis is a deep trauma within the collective, what does it mean personally, to each person?

A few years back, I had a Colour Mirrors life path reading, and it turns out that I have two bottles connected to Atlantis in my life path: Bottle 7 – Neptune and bottle G3 – Return from Atlantis.

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Initially, I didn’t feel called to explore Neptune (Bottle 7). It felt already acquired: the water, the emotions, the intuition. So I let it be, preferring to focus on some of the other bottles. I have, however, worked with G3- Return from Atlantis, twice already. But never with a real focus on Atlantis itself.

Then I got attributed G3 again in a random pull as my bottle for Lion’s Gate, and I knew it was my call to go deeper into the turquoise bottles.

Some of the turquoise Colour Mirrors

As a double water sign, Pisces rising, Cancer sun, I am pretty watery. My mom says I’m very sensitive but not emotional, except I am extremely emotional. I’m just not very good at expressing my emotions. I have Saturn in Cancer and my Moon in Capricorn, which can be experienced as very limiting, castrating, and binding. My emotions feel more like mud than water: dense, stale, not flowy or fluid enough and I often get stuck in them for ages. I secretly envy people who have more fluidity in their emotional expression, who can cry when they need to cry. It takes a lot for me to cry. And I need to feel safe to show my emotions.

Recently, I connected with two wonderful women who gave me a different perspective on these particular astrological placements. One suggested that having them was actually a blessing because I was already so fluid in my life, they allowed me to create structure and containment, and actually do something with the energy and emotions. And that was a great thing.
The other talked about Saturn and the Moon as protectors and guardians of my emotional landscape and inner water. Once you passed the protector gates, it gave access to so much beauty and creativity.

So back to the original ponder: what does Atlantis mean to me personally?

Some ideas flowed easily:
Atlantis represented happy times. A time where life was good and balanced until it wasn’t. A place where I left my joy. It also represented an underwater volcano erupting: a huge release of energy and power happening to me right now. It was an emotional tsunami. Heartbreak. All emotional dams breaking. An inner implosion. And freedom from all mental structures, emotional thought forms, and beliefs that were strangling me.

All this resonated but didn’t feel especially revelatory.

I decided to do a past life regression to see what my soul was ready to remember. Right away, all felt veiled. Guarded.

During Atlantis, I could effortlessly breathe underwater.  I was a water expert, deeply connected to aquatic life. We cultivated water in a way that nourished all, without pollution. But I had a complicated relationship with water: I felt responsible for Atlantis’ downfall. Guilty. Even though I was only one of many moving parts. 

I came back from the regression with this truth: This Atlantis wound was actually a form of reclamation and a call to wholeness.

Healing it necessitated a shift in how I perceived my inner waters: they were my inner power. By truly honoring them, I could reclaim who I was in the world and let these ancient water codes guide me. It required allowing my deeper motives to surface and drive me, instead of playing it safe.Trusting these wise waters to show me the way and bring me many unexpected gifts.

Atlantis trauma had created a deep fear of being seen. A shame around my gifts. I’d been trying to fit in, afraid of my own depths, believing my emotions might lead to an impending doom. But the water codes were asking me to dive into the underworld. To face my fear. To step out.

And this is what set my soul tingling:  Re-accessing the forgotten water codes that awaken lost wisdom within and without.

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Let’s see what your soul is ready to remember.