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Feeling Unloved and Unwanted? What Mother Turtle Taught Me

I was standing at the top of a mountain, covered in baby animals that needed tending and nurturing, and I could no longer move forward. How had I ended up here?

Recently I have become aware of something vulnerable to share. Despite knowing that I am loved by my family and friends, I have been feeling deeply unwanted and unloved.

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The Self-Sacrifice Pattern Hiding In Your Birth Chart

The Question That Started This

I was talking about success with my husband the other night, wondering what success would mean for me if it wasn't about money or fame. This particular conversation cracked something open I hadn't looked at directly before. Both he and I had been groomed to believe that success meant being famous (and influencer culture has definitely exacerbated this perspective these days), but that definition didn't sit well with me anymore.

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Why Opportunities Feel Close… But Never Land

Living in “Almost”

Do opportunities feel very close, in fact so close you can smell them, nearly taste them?

Things look like they’re about to happen. You’re all set up and ready to go. Your ducks are in a row. You are even more than ready on so many levels: your resume, your website, your offers.

Yet nothing fully lands. The perfect job interview doesn’t lead to an offer. The course doesn’t seem to reach the right people. Your website pulls in traffic but doesn’t convert.


This isn’t bad luck. There’s a pattern here.

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Why You Attract People You Need to Heal Instead of People Who Can Love You

Do you recognize this relational pattern?
You keep meeting people who feel right at first. It’s like your souls connect. You see them, and they open up fast. It feels strong, nearly fated. You understand them, and there is a sense of soul recognition. You feel connected through what they carry and the way they express their energy.

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Why Your Relationships Change When Your Frequency Changes

Have you ever noticed that when you go through deep inner transformations, your relationships change too? Some people move away, while new people come into your life, and others start acting differently around you.


This is not random. It reflects a change in the signal you transmit.
Relationships respond to frequency long before they respond to words or actions.

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Why You Attract the Same Relationship Patterns Again and Again

The relationships you attract are not random. They are a living map of your inner world.

Do you ever feel like you keep attracting the same type of relationship dynamics no matter who you pull into your life? And that these same relationship dynamics extend to your family life, your love life, and your work life?

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